[It's bad enough when she laughs, when she lets out that soft giggle that stretches into a dazzling grin. She's gorgeous, she's hypnotic, she's the center of his world in a way that makes him crazy, not the least because no matter what he does she doesn't seem to quite believe him. But how could she not be, offering something like this?]
[Of course he nods, because nodding is all he can do. Words just won't come. If he nods, at least that will be something, some response, some acknowledgment that she's right, that the heat rising in his cheeks is for her and for that. And he thinks that's all there is, but—]
[But then she keeps going.]
[There's this weird moment between breaths where he's painfully, acutely aware of how fucked he is. It feels like she's got him around the throat, pressed up against the wall, with her words and her smile alone. She's so smart, too smart, and he's so fucking mortified and turned on that he thinks he might die. Right here, right now, in this cabana on this beach, may God strike him down.]
[It doesn't happen. Instead he swallows hard and carefully puts the bouquet of flowers down in his lap. Just. You know. Subtly and for no reason.]
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[Of course he nods, because nodding is all he can do. Words just won't come. If he nods, at least that will be something, some response, some acknowledgment that she's right, that the heat rising in his cheeks is for her and for that. And he thinks that's all there is, but—]
[But then she keeps going.]
[There's this weird moment between breaths where he's painfully, acutely aware of how fucked he is. It feels like she's got him around the throat, pressed up against the wall, with her words and her smile alone. She's so smart, too smart, and he's so fucking mortified and turned on that he thinks he might die. Right here, right now, in this cabana on this beach, may God strike him down.]
[It doesn't happen. Instead he swallows hard and carefully puts the bouquet of flowers down in his lap. Just. You know. Subtly and for no reason.]
I want you to do th— both. I want both.